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well now, its been a busy first two weeks of school, and i'm already loving it and hating it. I would like to compare.
LOVE
- music. as always.
- music council, wayyy too much fun
- Student Council, loving being music rep!
- Canadian History. and example being "now if i could just find a piece of chalk, i would shit myself with glee" -Mr. Pattison
- Biology, Mr. Jamieson=my kind of teacher
- being the top dog once again
- being stand partners with Caleb
- First period spare
- the music teachers
- getting into OPHB!!!

Not Too Sure About
- Calculus
- Chemistry
- being a pathfinder leader, simply becuase i don't think i'm quite old enough
- English, no ms Corry...
- 3/4 of my friends are now in university

HATE
- Exercise Science
- School politics, why can't it be summer again, when i didn't care what my friends did or said?
- not being stand partners with Claire
- being frustrated all the time
- not having anything to do outside of rehearsal
- not having any alternate choices in friends
- the need to do something extraordinary, but no means to make it happen
- having to decide what i want to do with the rest of my life
- the university syndrome*
- not seeing Laur every day

i guess i'm just not used to how different this year is in comparison to all the rest. school frustrates me, my parents frustrate me, my friends frustrate me, boys frustrate me. I have this burning desire to go somewhere, yet know i can't becuase there is too much to do, and my summer is gone. i now realise that travelling for me is not a luxury, but a matter of sanity. i'm too restless to stay in one place for so long. i'm jsut feeling a little stretched.
i am missing that connection you have with people, those long conversations about all things under the sun while sitting under the stars.

so now that i've taken a break from the reality of homework, i need to get going.
Kristen

*the university syndrome refers to how once someone goes off to university, they suddenly feel so much older than you, and feel the need to talk down to you like you have no idea what they've experienced, and you can't possibly comprehend university life becuase you are a lowley high school student, and that is all you are. a high school student. never more has that title hurt so much than when i talk to someone who has contracted the university syndrome. and its happened to more of you than you would think.